Tonight, I Surrender

Tonight…I surrender.

I surrender to the tears I’ve been holding back and hoped would never start to fall for fear they will never stop.

Tonight, I succumb to the exhaustion, fear, shock, sadness, relief, confusion, anger and PAIN.

An excruciating pain so deep in my heart, I have to remind myself over and over again to take

One.

More.

Breath.

Tonight…I grieve the loss of my first love.

Rest in peace, Mom. I will always “Love you, Miss you.”